Although there are other positive things I should be posting about, the birthday cupcakes, the plate full of delicious dumplings, the upcoming thanksgiving, my mind has inevitably settled on yet another episode of sadness. As much as I had tried, just when I thought I had put myself together, only then did I realize I still have not and could not move on. On the way to the gym tonight, I couldn’t help but blame myself for picking up that call he happened to place by accident. It was awkward to hear him calling himself differently. I guess he already moved on and maybe that was how he called himself with ‘others’. I missed him so much yet I couldn’t say a word. I couldn’t believe we were over…I just couldn’t. 😦 Even though I didn’t talk much and I told him that I was doing fine when he asked, I wish he cared enough to know that my heart had long been shattered.
I broke down on my way back as I drove. How I wish I could go home….