The proposal


For the many places I have been to in my life, I somehow managed to keep vivid memories of people and conversation related to the place, as though I could rewind the video capture of the live event over and over again. Every time I reminisced all the good memories, they made me smile.

Lake Tahoe

It was early July when we had a last-minute road trip to Lake Tahoe, intentionally for his parents.  I still remember how beautiful the Emerald Bay was in the summer time as I visited a couple of years back.   This time around, the beauty of the lake was even more breathtaking. Continue reading


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On the road

อาทิตย์นี้มีโอกาสได้ไปรู้จักพี่หมอฟันคนไทยคนหนึ่งทีเปิด practice อยู่ที่นี่ พี่เค้าดู successful มากทีเดียว พี่เค้าได้มาชวนงานอาสาสมัครของ health care screening ที่วัดไทยใน Fremont  (ที่ขึ้นชื่อว่ามีอาหารไทยอร่อยด้วย) เราก็ตอบตกลงทันที เนื่องจากวัดไทยนี้อยู่่ห่างออกไปมาก ให้เราขับไปเองโดยไม่มีจุดหมายก็คงไม่ไป แต่ตอนนี้ก็มีจุดหมายแล้ว ถือว่าเป็นโอกาสที่ดีที่จะได้ไปช่วยสังคมไทยที่นี่ และได้ลองอาหารไทยที่ขึ้นชื่อไปในตัว 🙂

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By myself

When the story has fallen apart, there is not much that I can do, except trying to walk on, and move on. It’s not easy to try to erase almost a decade of memories off one’s mind. Every part of my life belongs to some part of the memories. And that’s the hardest thing.

When I read the papers at the coffee shop, I wished there was a time when I could draw random cartoons on his papers just like I always did. We always worked so hard so that at the end of the day we could go out, have fun and wind down. My imagination said  ‘all right, read this, finish this, and then we could go watch Scream 4’.  The reality is that there is no one out there to reach out for.

It’s just an empty space.

I am so sad I could almost give up.Though appearing all smiling and being strong, I still wake up and sleep with tears in my eyes. I really hope one day I will be able to look at the whole situation as a reason for my life to move on.

I keep telling myself, I will fight on because nobody can really help me but myself.


Better in Time

PS: I may have been too overwhelmed with sadness. But a short note re work, now I’m an ortho chief and I’ve been busy as hell! It’s good though, so I can remain focused.

The best thing


I woke up at 3 am this morning, getting ready to catch my early flight back to SFO. You woke up and helped me carry my luggage and put it into the car trunk. You asked if I had taken the green tea mochi cookies. There are 6 of them you bought for me in the box. It’s time to leave but I didn’t want to. As I left, returned my car and made it to the gate in no time, you called to make sure everything was all right. I wanted to tell you you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And I’m so sad that we are once again apart.

Writing on my iPhone @LAX with tears in my eyes.

Your song

12:30 am and I was sitting on my bed with my MacBook. For the time felt like forever, I had been staring on the blank screen of the Mail program. The window ‘Re:thoughts’ was popped up and the cursor had been blinking for I was not sure how long. I was stressed over an issue regarding DB and was trying to put together my thoughts into words as carefully as possible.

Ring ring ring…I reached over to the phone.

LMR: Waddee krub, how are you doing?

Me: I’m good. Why are you calling so late? Irregular time for him.

LMR: When will you be leaving for [city name]?

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